I still didn't buy a battery for the scale. I'm not feeling so great about that. I haven't been doing the things that I know are vital to my weight loss goals. I have been so doggone bummed out about things.
I have moments of tearfulness about the relationship...or lack of. After putting 3 1/2 years into this thing, with physical labor included which brought more monetary value to his properties, I feel I deserve SOME SORT OF REACTION. There has been nothing. No conversation, no explanations, no indication that he ever cared at all. I think that this may be worse that if we were arguing about things. At least there is emotion involved in arguments. My situation is void of any emotion from him.
The job depresses me. I didn't want to return to mainstream nursing, and it has proven to be exactly as I knew it would be for me. I harbor feelings of angst toward him for forcing me to do this job, when for the past 3 1/2 years I planned on a business and life partnership with him, a partnership that I thought was supposed to last until death do us part. But, he didn't even get close to that commitment.
So, yes, I'm so bummed out this week. Thankfully, phone conversations with my besties keep me somewhat sane, and my church family cares for me and prays for me. Plus, in less than 3 weeks, I'm off to Florida. It's a short trip, but will most certainly be jam packed with love and joy.
Today, I am going to work for a friend, which will be good. Tomorrow, I am getting someone signed up as a Young Living member with a Premium Starter Kit. The kit contains 11 essential oil singles and blends, a diffuser, and samples. It is an excellent value, and membership with this company has big time rewards! I am within a few months of getting 25% back with every order I place! (I am currently at 20% which has been awesome in itself).
Going to apply some "Joy" EO blend right now and get this day going!