I figured that my weekly weigh in would be worse than it was this week. It wasn't even a half step back, thankfully. Only two tenths. Enough to make me pay attention to the things I do when emotions are on high alert. Not only what I eat and drink, but actions I take as well.
An action that I definitely have to add in to my evolving routine is exercise. I'm not adding it yet, but know I have to do so soon. A few years ago when I lived in Michigan, I had joined a gym. I actually was motivated and went on a regular basis. Although my motivation was warped ( a guy I liked was into going to the gym, so I decided to be into it also- and he ended up shattering my heart with one statement..."I don't like you like that; I'm only attracted to little tiny women"), I saw success weight-wise, and I felt great physically. I want to do join a gym again. not for anyone else this time. All for me. I'm worth it, even if another person doesn't think I am.
I also have an issue with INACTION. When something in daily life brings me down emotionally, I get inactive. It's the curl-up-in-a-ball-and-watch-Lifetime movies-and cry kind of thing. It is super difficult for me to get out of that funk at times. A dear lady who is a leader in my Young Living upline posted a fantastic reminder this week. She said," If you are experiencing disappointment over it today, APPLY YOUR OILS. Find Oola Field, Abundance, Believe, Build Your Dream (all blends by Young Living), but whatever you do, don't sit in the frustration and negativity." Such excellent advice! I know some people that sit in negativity A LOT, and I must make it a daily action to deflect it! ( I'm picturing me as Wonder Woman with my bracelets in front of me deflecting the negativity bullets!)
Happy hump day, y'all. Let's make the rest of this week active and positive!
I had a fairly rough several days. There were some good things that happened, some sadness, and some choices I made that weren't on goal for myself. Again I embark on a new day and a new week.
At this time, I am expanding my business realm. I am actively seeking local cleaning jobs I will travel to most places in Logan or Sangamon Counties (Illinois). I will clean residences, businesses, rental or real estate turnovers, or any special cleanings needing done (holidays are upon us!). I also do windows! I provide my own non toxic, essential oil based cleaner. If you prefer that I use your cleaners, no problem!
Please contact me via email here, or hit me up on Facebook if you or anyone you refer to me needs my phone number to set up an estimate.
To my great surprise, this week's emotional eating was not a factor on today's weigh in. I believe that the dietary essential oils I am ingesting have something to do with it.
Grapefruit has always been known to be full of health benefits. It contains the cancer-fighting antioxidant lycopene, and of course Vitamin C. It also stabilizes blood sugar, according to studies that show that it contains compounds that can reduce insulin levels. This means that your body can use your food for energy instead of storing it as fat. It also curbs cravings. Researchers have speculated that smelling grapefruit oil has an effect on liver enzymes, which can keep the cravings down.
Lemon oil can improve the neurological activity which promotes fat breakdown. It also promotes a positive mood, which is helpful when striving to achieve a weight goal.
Peppermint oil revs up your metabolism and helps your body process the food more efficiently.
Although the oils are awesome, I can't let myself have the mindset that "I can overeat and the oils will take care of it." That would be foolish! Today, I will enjoy the fact that I am 18.6% of the way to my goal to #lose100 , and I will continue to be mindful of what I ingest! Have a great day!
This topic is real and far reaching. I've done it many, many times. Sometimes for an extended period of time. This week, it was for a couple of days. I was honest with myself, though. I entered the extras that were consumed into my daily log. I didn't like doing it and looking at it, but it is part of the process. My journey, and your journey, however that looks for you, well, they aren't easy journeys. We all have something going on. We look to things for comfort and satisfaction when we have emotions that we want to get away from at the moment. For me this week, I did the emotional consumption, but it didn't take away the emotions.
One of the days of the "21 days..." series (see my post "A Touch of Faith") was about evaluating your experiences. My evaluation of this emotional eating experience is A) The eating didn't help anything B) I felt worse due to disappointment in myself C) I will write down alternative things to do with myself the next time I have those emotional triggers D) Long term success depends on this behavior changing.
So I pull up the boot straps and carry on. Tomorrow is a brand new day.
Yes, this is a weight loss journey, but even more importantly, this is a journey of faith and spirituality. We are all on a spiritual journey and that looks different for different people. I personally believe that God created the heavens and the earth, and sent His Son Jesus to be our savior from our sin, which separates us from God. My faith (complete trust or confidence in someone or something) is in God.
That being said, I stopped working as a nurse and began my essential oil business on a huge leap of faith. I didn't leap before I did some research, though. I researched the Young Living company and other companies that sell essential oils. I also researched this with God. I did a whole lot of praying about this big life shift. I asked that doors be opened for me that I am to walk through, and that doors be decidedly closed for me that I should not walk through (I pray that one daily). Let me tell you, that's a good one. I have clearly seen which doors are closed for me lately. I was very fortunate during this business-beginning process to have found a completely awesome tool called 21 Days of Prayer for Your Business. Oh. My. Goodness. The series was so incredibly helpful. I was able to take a deep look at my faith journey and learn how to best proceed on my business journey. I encourage you to go through these videos as well! There is a workbook that goes along with the series, but the author, Monique McLean, always says that if you don't have the book, just grab a notebook and pen. I read through my notes of this series daily during my prayer time.
One of the topics in the 21 days is "Be Still". It is so important to spend that quiet time with God. I have put together a cozy "prayer nook" on the 3rd floor of the house. This floor used to be an attic back in the day (I live in a circa 1910 farmhouse), but I affectionately refer to it as "hippie heaven" now..haha. In the prayer nook, I have a couple of nice, big beanbag chairs, a couple of small stands, a prayer board so I remember who all I need to pray for (plus to physically mark off requests as they are answered), and a few bibles. Well, I also a lava lamp, a 70's tablecloth, a 70's rug, and some other cute décor. Have to have my flair going on in the prayer area too! If I can pray for anything specific for you, please let me know! You can fill out the contact form on this site and I will absolutely pray for you!
Weekly Weight Wednesday numbers this week could be disappointing, if I allowed them to be. I'm not going to do that! A half pound seems like very little when compared to last week's 11.8 lb. loss. I believe there are a couple of factors in play here besides the scale number.
First of all, when I completed the 5 day cleanse, I hadn't had much sodium for days, so the rapid reintroduction of sodium ( I had some pretty salty soup the first day!) may have caused me to suck up some of the water I had gotten rid of.
Then I had my birthday weekend. As I said before, I didn't go completely crazy, but I was definitely over my calorie target area. Speaking of my calorie target area, at my current weight I would need 2600 calories per day to stay the same. A reduction of that baseline would therefore cause weight reduction. My target range is 1400-1600 a day. As I lose, I will have to further reduce the calorie intake. I am also ingesting the dietary essential oils that may help burn fat to give me that extra boost!
I think the main reason why the scale read what it did today is because of my eating behavior yesterday. I didn't take in many calories all day, then at 9pm I was starving and ate a big meal and went to bed. Didn't go over my target range, but ate almost all of it late. Duh.....I should know better than to do THAT! Ha! Something to keep in mind as I move forward!
I feel great. I have energy. My back isn't acting up today. My clothes are a bit looser. Getting excited at the upcoming wardrobe expansion (as in, I'll get to wear stuff I already have but outgrew awhile back). I'm having some meetings this week to share my essential oil story and show some folks how they can naturally support their wellness. I absolutely love it when someone has an "AHA moment" right before my eyes! Yay oils!
I turned 51 yesterday. I think to myself that I don't FEEL 51, but then, I don't know what it's supposed to feel like. I just feel like me. The same me I have always been. Except....when I think about 51 years of life I've now lived, I most likely don't have 51 left.
I really want to live better day by day. Be kinder to my body, take care of my mind by continuing to learn, and nurture my spirit by living in relationship with my creator. I want to help people and brighten this scary world we live in. And so I shall!
Healthy eating-wise, the 5 day cleanse was super successful! I then had the ol' birthday weekend. I didn't do completely horrible on my food and drink intake, but I didn't deny myself things I wanted either. My next step, which I already have begun, is to take Slique Citraslim capsules daily. These may help support the body in burning excess fat, so I'm trying them out just in case that happens!
I'm certain that my stomach shrank a bit during the cleanse days, so I'm definitely eating smaller portions. I also grocery shopped while NOT hungry, so I bought plenty of good stuff! I'm going to make an all vegetable soup this week. I like using Spicy V8 for my base. I'm also going to make broccoli salad, but have to reduce the fat from my favorite recipe! What have you guys tried that still tastes great in place of a mayo based dressing?
Have a blessed day! I'm anxious to see how my 2 days of birthday eating translates on the scale Wednesday! I better go get me a calming oil!
Since I am a Young Living Independent Distributor, of course I'm going to try out their 5 day nutritive cleanse! https://www.youngliving.com/en_US/products/new-5-day-nutritive-cleanse
I didn't intend to start the cleanse until after my birthday, but when I weighed myself last week, I cried, then was angry at me, then accepted that it is what it is right now, and it's time to FIGHT. On Saturday 9/30 I started the cleanse. Basically it is 3 shakes and 3 snacks a day, plus 3 shots of Ningxia Red, YL's awesome whole body supplement, packed full of antioxidants and essential oils, and a "Digest and Cleanse" gel cap 3 times a day. The only bad thing is the aching head the first 2 days, presumably from the lack of caffeine. I typically used to drink a pot of coffee in the morning, and sweet tea the rest of the day. I will not go back to the daily coffee, because that involves too much creamer and sugar. I could take in 300-400 calories in a morning just in the coffee. That has to go. I will have the occasional treat of a non fat iced white chocolate mocha, or in the cooler weather a nice hot skinny caramel macchiato. The sweet tea will be less sweet and less frequent, but still a part of my life!
On Day 1 of this 5, I went to bed early and missed the evening snack (not recommended!). I emotionally felt like I did the first few days of being off of cigarettes; I wanted to just sleep and escape from the cruel world! I can't eat what I want so why be awake? (or smoke, when that was the thing)
Day 2, I went to church, and after the service walked out into the lobby to the coffee and snack table, and had my fingers almost to the point of gripping a slice of pumpkin bread, so beautifully displayed in the authentic Tupperware container. Oh no! I remembered, and pulled my hand back to me, gripping it with my other hand as if it had a mind of it's own and would try for the bread again. I made it out of the church while remaining compliant with the plan!
Day3 I had an achy back .It was achy the day before, but worse now. Felt like a messed up electrical current from my neck all the way down through my hips and into the upper legs. I started in with a homemade cream I made with my oils (coconut oil base and drops of essential oils mixed in), and used a blend called Valor on my spine from top to bottom. I did this several times throughout the day! By nighttime, I was comfortable and slept well!
Day 4 was uneventful. I worked, took a nap, and worked some more. Ha!
Day 5 is today. I'm glad. I'm just a smidge bored with the eating of the same thing every day. The shakes are good, and I have been adding some citrus oil to each one. Lime has been my favorite. I have also used lemon, tangerine, and orange. But for real, I'm ready for some food to chew on besides fruit and carrots (Just because carrots have been the only raw veg I eat totally by itself)! I have definitely used this time to plan grocery shopping from here on out, and I will be pinning lots of healthy recipes (follow me on Pinterest!).I really want to try the cauliflower "mashed potatoes". Has anyone tried that? I'm a little scared, but I like cauliflower.
One habit I have gotten into this week is water. I will continue to drink plenty of water! Good advice for all :-)
During this time that I have been doing research to learn how to build a website, I have thought about the name at length. What in the world will I call this site? I brainstormed on paper. I tried to think of catchy titles. I tried to think of rhyming words. I didn't like anything I was coming up with. I then turned to the thesaurus. I looked up synonyms for "fat". The emotional response within me when I read the words "heavy set" surprised me. Those two words brought me back to childhood, and the humiliation I felt when I was labeled as "heavy set", which was pretty much any time that clothing purchases were involved. I'm certain that the adults who referred to me as "heavy set" were trying to be kind while noticing the fatness, but I still felt like I was abnormal because of my size.
I also recall the chant "Fatty, fatty two by four! Can't get through the kitchen door!" That was in grade school. Moving up through teen years, of course there were those who made comments about my weight/size. As an adult, yep. It still happens. It happened a week ago. I was having a conversation with someone I know well. I said something like," If _________were the case right now, I would be upset!" and the response I got, with the ol' nod and wide eyes,"Yeah, you would kick my ass!" I'm not sure why some people assume that I am violent because I am fat, but they do. I've never kicked anyone's ass in my life. I wonder if I could? I'm fat, so I must be able to....right?
I don't have an unrealistic goal that my feelings will never get hurt again once I am not fat, but, my goodness, how sweet it will be to never hear those words as descriptions of me again. Heavy set. Fat. Amazon woman. Big gal. Hefty. Husky. And oh so many more.
This weight loss journey will not only be physical and behavioral, but very spiritual and emotional as well. Thanks for reading, and I hope you will be hanging out with me as I walk this path of wellness, purpose, and abundance.