Along my journey with essential oils, I have done a good amount of research. One book that has helped me understand the physical and emotional effects of the oils is the "Essential Oils Pocket Reference" by Life Sciences Publishing. It goes deeply into the molecular makeup of the oils and the absorption into the body on the cellular level. Additionally, it explains how inhaling the oils effects the olfactory bulb in the nasal passage, which then sends impulses to the limbic portion of the brain and the hypothalamus (the limbic system deals with emotions, memories, and stimulation, and the hypothalamus coordinates the autonomic nervous system and the activity of the pituitary gland).
This blog is my weight loss journey, yes, but also has turned out to be about life in general. The weight loss started off strong, but my emotional mess has caused me to yo-yo around for the past couple of months. I've made some posts about "a friend", and some other vague references, but the mess is me. My relationship of 3 1/2 years is ending. My plan to be with this man for the rest of my life (including moving from another state to be with him, working on his properties, working at his business, and giving away all my furniture and appliances to blend lives with him) is no longer the plan. The new plan is work, buy furniture, buy appliances, and figure out where I'm going to live. I'm totally relying on God to give me clear signs. Open the doors I am to walk through, close the doors I am not to walk through. That's my current deal.
I'm having the hardest time with this betrayal. I'm really a mellow person, and I have walked on eggshells so much in the past 3 years, trying to make things better for him. Being the housemaid, always trying to be kind and loving. It all fell on "deaf ears", so to speak. Whoever this other gal is...she must be freaking spectacular...but then again...is she really waiting in line to come be the housemaid?
So anyway, with all this going on, I need some help. I've done way to much sitting around being depressed and feeling "not good enough". I have to combat those feelings because I know darn well I'm good enough. Shame on him for not relishing that fact. Shame on him for causing me hurt and tears. Shame on him for letting me believe I would always live in the house I turned into a home.
Enter some new oil blends into my life! On my Essential Rewards order this month, I got "White Angelica" and "Into The Future". White Angelica increases and strengthens the aura around the body to bring a renewed sense of strength and protection, creating a feeling of wholeness in the realm of one's own spirituality. It's frequency neutralizes negative energy and gives a feeling of security. Into The Future helps one leave the past behind in order to progress with vision and excitement. So many times we find ourselves settling for mediocrity and sacrificing our own potential and success because of the fear of the unknown and the future. This blend inspires determination and a pioneering spirit and creates a strong emotional feeling of being able to reach one's potential. (Descriptions quoted from the "Essential Oils Pocket Reference")
These oils are going to be on me daily for awhile. This transition time is going to last a bit....I have so many things I have to purchase for my next home, and it is going to take time. If you're a praying person, I could use some! If you're not a praying person, send those good vibes my way! Much love to you all!
A friend told me they tried to comment on a blog post but it didn't go through. I noticed that on mobile devices, the comment section fields are not identified. Until I can get an answer from the company, here's what I know from trying it out myself. The top box is for your name, 2nd box is your email address, I didn't use the 3rd box, and the 4th box is for your comment. I sent a comment to myself this way...haha.
I apologize for the confusion on that, and I would love to hear from you!
I got on the dreaded scale this morning. It actually wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. So yay....I really don't need more things to be emotional about right now!
I am heading out soon for my second day of nursing shift work as a travel nurse. The facility I worked at Monday was nice. I will definitely go back there. Today I travel to a different town. Hoping for a non exciting shift there as well. When a day as a nurse in a nursing home has no excitement, it's a good thing! The residents are fine and the work is done on time!
My work day oil regimen will forever include the blend En-R-Gee. It contains the single oils: Rosemary, Juniper, Lemongrass, Nutmeg, Balsam Fir, Clove, and Black Pepper. I love the smell of this blend, and it "may help improve one's energy " and "may also help with mental alertness" (from my phone app "Reference Guide For Essential Oils"). All I know is it works for me! I put it on my wrists, behind my ears, and the back of my neck.
Have a blessed day, everyone!
Today I return to mainstream nursing work. I didn't plan to, but my small business plan got booted out the window for the time being. I would love to share the details of that with you, but this is not the appropriate time! The events and details have caused me some pretty serious emotional distress. Therefore, I have not been focused on the task at hand, and the entire reason for this blog. I have not been eating right, I've been drinking soda and wine at times (soooo many calories!), and I've been sitting around in my own little prison, so to speak, doing zero exercise. Today, I begin again.
I haven't gotten on the scale for a bit. I don't want to know. But I shall do so on Wednesday. It is what it is. I have to get back on track. I cannot allow the negativity of an outside source continue to bring me down. I have light within me, and I need to shine!
I am starting my day with some defensive moves, since I am going to work in a healthcare facility. I'm putting Thieves oil on the bottoms of both feet and I finally opened that bottle of Inner Defense capsules that have been in the cabinet for awhile. I got the capsules for free from Young Living; they have excellent monthly promos and give me free stuff every month for being a member enrolled in their Essential Rewards program. This product retails for just over $33, and I got it for free! I love that! It contains a blend of essential oils that provide immune support and an inner environment that yeast and fungus dislike. Take some time when you can and click on my Young Living link on the home page of this site. Investigate the products! They have been life changing for me. The other link on my home page, Distillery 9, has a ton of info about essential oils and their uses, and great info about the Young Living company itself.
Blessings to you today and every day. I'm off to love on some patients for the evening!
I first learned about the stages of grief long ago, probably in high school when I took courses to prepare me for college and my degree in nursing. Since that time, I have gone through the stages multiple times. We all have! We have lost people we love. This grief doesn't just occur when someone you love dies, it also occurs when someone you love betrays your love and trust. Specifically, in the case of my friend currently, a person's significant other, be it a spouse, life partner, boyfriend, girlfriend, whatever. This holiday season, amid all my joyous preparations for family time and church events, I have witnessed the death of love and trust, and the beginnings of the grief process for my friend.
The 5 stages of grief (some publications list 7, but I'll stick to the "big 5" haha) are denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance. My friend got the news ON CHRISTMAS. The denial stage in this case was thickly laced with shock and disbelief. I was on the "friend distress phone call" for quite awhile. I must admit, I was pretty shocked as well. I didn't expect THAT relationship to have the outcome that has now presented itself.
I spent a good amount of time with my friend during the week between Christmas and the New Year. (Sorry about my lack of presence here; didn't mean to ignore you all!!) I have not been careful about my calorie intake during this time. I've put 4 pounds on. I'll snap out of that soon lol.
So, anyway, during the week of extra friend time, I saw the shock and disbelief turn angry. Let me tell you, somebody is MAD. Lol. Very mad. I heard a lot of "I'm going to ___________ (insert mean stuff) and then I'm going to ____________(insert more mean stuff) until the _____________(insert mean name calling words) chokes on it." I, of course, agreed with the dastardly plans that came up. That's what besties do, right?
I'm curious to see what the bargaining stage might be in this case. I suspect it will be intertwined with the anger still. Something like, if the offender plays it cool and tries to be a good person during the break up, my friend will let the offender live. Hahaha....did I mention that my friend is angry?
I know there will be depression, and I will be around to try to be cheery during that time. Then the acceptance will come. I know this friend will be fine. It just sucks when stuff like this happens. It really throws a person for a loop. A life plan changed in an instant. After all is said and done, the friend will be happy, because happiness is intrinsic to that one. The offender, on the other hand, no intrinsic happiness there. Bad choice to have screwed over such a nice person.
I have to give a shout out regarding my essential oil life right now! I shared some oils with my distressed friend. Oils have emotional effects as well. I chose to share one called "Envision". It is a blend of several single oils. The product description: "Envision contains scents that stimulate feelings of creativity and resourcefulness encouraging renewed faith in the future and the strength necessary to achieve your dreams." My friend is facing moving away from the offender, and really needs renewed faith and strength right now! If you ever want to try an oil I talk about, just let me know. I will gladly share my stash!