Hello readers! My apologies for dropping the blogging ball for such a long time. I can see that my page has had many visits since I myself last visited! That is an encouragement to me, so thank you! After my last post in June, I embarked on the remainder of my part of Dead and Company's summer tour. I took my daughter Michelle to Ohio for a show, then we stopped in Northern Indiana and stayed the night in the camper of some tour friends (in their driveway !), then went on to Alpine Valley Wisconsin for 2 shows. The music I have loved for decades and the community of love that surrounds the scene was just what I needed. I had time to regroup, focus on my future, meditate, and pray. I was able to converse with some strong, advice sharing women who have gone through relationship trauma, and they showered me with love. Michelle and I had a wonderful time together!
The weekend after we returned, I went to one of my besties' town for the weekend to attend their independence Day Celebration. I felt refreshed, and had a peace about me, even though I was still living in the house I knew I had to leave. I had spent way too much time locking myself away in that house and being depressed because of all my time and devotion I put into the house, and the former relationship. I knew it was so very unhealthy for me to stay, and I've been praying for several months for God to lead the way to my new home. So I was with my friend, and she said," You know, I think there's a vacant farmhouse out here". We went by, and sure enough, vacant. She said it was probably a mess, as the former tenants did a lot of damage, and the farmer that owns it didn't want to mess with it any more. We went to the farm where the owner was, and they let us take a look. What I saw was POTENTIAL!! This place was in no way as trashed as the one I just helped remodel. The farmer and I talked about it, and he immediately said that if I wanted to work on it, I could rent it! Then when he told me how much for rent, I wept. The price was less than half of what I was expecting! I mean, seriously, this is like 1970's rent! For a 3 bedroom house with a basement and big attic room! I waited for 6 1/2 months for God to lead me to it, and He blessed me beyond measure! Since that day, I've been working on the house and trying to get all my stuff moved. I'm getting pretty close at this point. The house is looking great! Also in July, I reached that 50 lb loss mark! Since that day, I haven't weighed myself. I honestly can't find my scale!! Haha..really! It is in a box or tote somewhere! I may have added a couple of pounds as I totally haven't been keeping a very close watch on calories, but my smaller clothes are still feeling good.
I am going to hang onto the same oufit from those pictures, as I am so interested to see how they hang once I reach goal! The ex is occasionally sending communications attempting to twist the dagger he plunged into me on Christmas, but you know, God's got this. He hasn't brought me this far to let me fall. Love will prevail. And karma? Well, I've seen that fall upon those that run around hurting others as well. I'm not going to wish bad upon those who hurt me, just saying I've seen stuff before. Lol. The Young Living Essential oil blend that has been my go-to recently is "Inner Child". This blend has a fragrance that may stimulate memory response and help one reconnect with their inner self or own identity, which is one of the first steps in finding emotional balance. The single oils in this blend are orange, tangerine, jasmine, ylang ylang, spruce, sandalwood, neroli, and lemongrass. After over half of the year in emotional turmoil, this blend has helped me immensely! I am truly reconnecting with my own identity! I spent so much time trying to please and appease someone who couldn't be pleased! Not only that, but my youngest baby moved out of the nest, so for the first time in a very long time, I live alone. I shop for me, I put my stuff where I want, I'm only cleaning up after me, I'm only doing my own laundry....I feel great! Then, after all this happiness, I got asked out on some dates! One such date was the Joan Jett and Foreigner concert at the State Fair. We made it to the rail (front row), we got to touch the lead singer who jumped up on the rail right in front of us, my date caught me a guitar pick, and then the next day we were in the photo gallery of the online local newspaper! Good times! I am blessed, truly. I hope you all have a wonderful September. I'm going to find that scale soon and see what's up! Peace!