Hello readers! My apologies for dropping the blogging ball for such a long time. I can see that my page has had many visits since I myself last visited! That is an encouragement to me, so thank you! After my last post in June, I embarked on the remainder of my part of Dead and Company's summer tour. I took my daughter Michelle to Ohio for a show, then we stopped in Northern Indiana and stayed the night in the camper of some tour friends (in their driveway !), then went on to Alpine Valley Wisconsin for 2 shows. The music I have loved for decades and the community of love that surrounds the scene was just what I needed. I had time to regroup, focus on my future, meditate, and pray. I was able to converse with some strong, advice sharing women who have gone through relationship trauma, and they showered me with love. Michelle and I had a wonderful time together!
The weekend after we returned, I went to one of my besties' town for the weekend to attend their independence Day Celebration. I felt refreshed, and had a peace about me, even though I was still living in the house I knew I had to leave. I had spent way too much time locking myself away in that house and being depressed because of all my time and devotion I put into the house, and the former relationship. I knew it was so very unhealthy for me to stay, and I've been praying for several months for God to lead the way to my new home. So I was with my friend, and she said," You know, I think there's a vacant farmhouse out here". We went by, and sure enough, vacant. She said it was probably a mess, as the former tenants did a lot of damage, and the farmer that owns it didn't want to mess with it any more. We went to the farm where the owner was, and they let us take a look. What I saw was POTENTIAL!! This place was in no way as trashed as the one I just helped remodel. The farmer and I talked about it, and he immediately said that if I wanted to work on it, I could rent it! Then when he told me how much for rent, I wept. The price was less than half of what I was expecting! I mean, seriously, this is like 1970's rent! For a 3 bedroom house with a basement and big attic room! I waited for 6 1/2 months for God to lead me to it, and He blessed me beyond measure! Since that day, I've been working on the house and trying to get all my stuff moved. I'm getting pretty close at this point. The house is looking great! Also in July, I reached that 50 lb loss mark! Since that day, I haven't weighed myself. I honestly can't find my scale!! Haha..really! It is in a box or tote somewhere! I may have added a couple of pounds as I totally haven't been keeping a very close watch on calories, but my smaller clothes are still feeling good.
I am going to hang onto the same oufit from those pictures, as I am so interested to see how they hang once I reach goal! The ex is occasionally sending communications attempting to twist the dagger he plunged into me on Christmas, but you know, God's got this. He hasn't brought me this far to let me fall. Love will prevail. And karma? Well, I've seen that fall upon those that run around hurting others as well. I'm not going to wish bad upon those who hurt me, just saying I've seen stuff before. Lol. The Young Living Essential oil blend that has been my go-to recently is "Inner Child". This blend has a fragrance that may stimulate memory response and help one reconnect with their inner self or own identity, which is one of the first steps in finding emotional balance. The single oils in this blend are orange, tangerine, jasmine, ylang ylang, spruce, sandalwood, neroli, and lemongrass. After over half of the year in emotional turmoil, this blend has helped me immensely! I am truly reconnecting with my own identity! I spent so much time trying to please and appease someone who couldn't be pleased! Not only that, but my youngest baby moved out of the nest, so for the first time in a very long time, I live alone. I shop for me, I put my stuff where I want, I'm only cleaning up after me, I'm only doing my own laundry....I feel great! Then, after all this happiness, I got asked out on some dates! One such date was the Joan Jett and Foreigner concert at the State Fair. We made it to the rail (front row), we got to touch the lead singer who jumped up on the rail right in front of us, my date caught me a guitar pick, and then the next day we were in the photo gallery of the online local newspaper! Good times! I am blessed, truly. I hope you all have a wonderful September. I'm going to find that scale soon and see what's up! Peace!
I truly thought that I gained a little weight over the past 2 weeks, but oh my gosh! I actually lost a little! That has me super excited because in another 1.8 pounds, I will be halfway to my 100 pound weight loss goal! I can't believe I'm so close to the 50 pound mark! I'm about 3 months behind my original goal of one year, but I'm not beating myself up over it. It's not totally my fault...I mean, the emotional turmoil over the winter not caused by me (but deeply affecting me) really threw me into a tailspin and a depression. In past times, an upset like that would have been a 10 pound weight gain for me. Now, since I have become much more educated about essential oils for emotions, the big gain didn't happen, and my emotional trauma was helped by some wonderful oil blends
I now have 2 nursing jobs. The first one I started back in January doesn't have as much available work as I need nearby. I'm just not willing to drive more than an hour to a job site. The second job is going to keep me pretty busy starting in July. It looks like I will have more options than nursing home work with the new employer. They have a lot more in home care opportunities. Road trip week was a week of over indulgence in the food and beverage department! I didn't weigh myself because I didn't want to know! Haha. Tomorrow morning I will "woman up" and step on the scale! I don't think it will be completely horrible, as my work uniforms I recently was able to fit into are still fitting well. One thing I noticed recently is that I need to buy new underwear. Maybe not info that interests you, but I'm excited that the undies I have are too big! I'm taking a few days to spend with my daughter later this month. It has been way too long since she and I had some focused time together. I can't wait to hang out with her! I've been very blessed this past 6 months by dear friends and family helping me through some emotionally rough times. All the little jaunts I've been able to take have been such a gift! With work being sporadic, there's no way I would have been able to go all the places I've gone. I'm going to take a little space here to give a shout out to those who made it all possible with their generosity! Susan, Patti and Ed blessed me with Orlando. Susan gifted me the concert ticket, and I was able to stay at her house part of the time, and Patti and Ed's the rest of the time. They fed me and loved on me well! Fort Myers was a gift from Tracy, Bob, Connie and Gary. They invited me to be the 5th wheel of their group, gave me a bed to sleep in (a friend of Connie's owns the house we stayed in), and showed me a real good time! Tracy paid for my flight and is allowing me to pay her back when work picks up. Love you girl! The road trip recently was brought to me by Deb and Ed. They are so sweet and give me a gorgeous room to stay in when I visit! Many other folks have been kind and made me smile when feeling blue. Life is getting shorter all the time, and I am going to enjoy it as much as possible! To quote a Grateful Dead lyric, "Ain't no time to hate, barely time to wait". Live with love and joy, people!
This week has been wonderful! Finishing up the journey with a Dead and Company show tonight, and head home tomorrow. My youngest (Kyle-age 18) and I started our road trip on 5/31. We first went to Jackson, Michigan, where we lived from 2011-2015. I posted on my Facebook page that day, "Part of my heart will always live here." That is so very true. I made some lifelong friends there, and an amazing church family. My church there has grown a lot since I moved back to IL. I saw bunches of new faces! That is a wonderful thing! More people following the teachings of Jesus and living in community with one another; sharing the peace and love that comes with knowing God on a very personal level. I feel that love every single day. I want everyone to know that love! Kyle had many amazing male role models during our years at Jaxnaz Church (First Church of the Nazarene, Jackson, MI). His two youth pastors during that time especially took a great interest in Kyle. They spent much quality time with him over the years! The time finally came that Kyle made the decision to be baptized, but he wanted his former youth pastors to do it. So, these wonderful men agreed to come to my dear friend's house and baptize Kyle Sunday afternoon. It was such a precious time! I am so thankful that God gave my family this wonderful Michigan family. We will always have a second home there! I'm actually thinking about expanding my travel nursing in a few years...spend some spring or summer months in Jackson!!
We left Jackson 6/4 and drove to Cincinnati for a Dead and Company concert. This was Kyle's first. He's not as into the music of the Grateful Dead as I am, but he looked like he had a fun time anyway. You just can't have a bad time with this crowd. There is always someone making me smile and laugh! Witty, quippy people, man. Lol. I think the boy looks pretty good in some tie dye...yes?? :-D
I would say that this must be one of the most unique vacations ever. Who else do you know that gets baptized into Christ's church one day, and introduced into the Grateful Dead family the next? Haha! Hippie Christians....it's a real genre!!! I must talk essential oils for a bit! I brought one of my diffusers, so the hotel room smells of Joy right now. One of my favorite blends! It contains the single oils Bergamot, Ylang Ylang, Geranium, Rosewood, Lemon, Mandarin, Jasmine, Roman Chamomile, Palmarosa, and Rose. Love, love, love this blend! If you want to check it out, let me know and I'll send you a few drops! This one is a definite love it or hate it kind of blend. I personally love it, my bestie Tracy hates it. So try it, and see if you love it! Peace to y'all, and we will see you back in Illinois soon!
I lost a nearly lifelong friend a couple of weeks ago. My buddy Lee has had a rough go of it for about 10 years, and he has real peace now. I met him when I was 18 years old. Back then he used to love nunchucks. and he was always swinging those things around out at the park a bunch of us youngsters used to hang out at. That's where one of my two nicknames for him came from...Lee Wong Foo. The other one was LeeDog. He named me su lu. I use that spelling and lower case letters because that's how he has texted me in these recent years. "what's up su lu?" I will miss his texts. I took my very first "adult" vacation in the 80's when he lived in Florida for awhile. Got on a plane all by myself and had a great time! Then in the 90's, my kids started appearing, and LWF and I kept in touch frequently and saw each other every once in awhile. He was in a relationship throughout the 90's and into the 2000's and was busy working and such. He never hesitated, though, coming to help me out if ever I needed anything. In about 2001 or so, he came to my house and replaced a bathroom floor for me. Like I said, anything I ever needed. His health started acting up somewhere around then. He got a blood clot in a leg and was hospitalized. I'm pretty sure he had to take blood thinners after that. I know he had to wear thigh high compression hose. Or he was supposed to, at least. Not sure how long he stuck with that! Sometime close to when I moved to Michigan, he had to have that leg amputated below the knee. I came home for a visit the year after I moved to MI, and he was doing well. He had a prosthesis and was able to walk on it. He was still driving, and working on a limited basis. Next stop in time, 2015 when I moved back home. I hadn't talked to LWF too much in awhile, and come to find out, he had to have his other leg amputated above the knee. THEN, not long after that, he was trying to get up on his prosthetics, fell, and broke a hip. That ordeal landed him in a nursing home for awhile (he had told me that before I returned from MI, his girlfriend of decades had kicked him out because "you can't work without legs so you're no good to me"). Post nursing home, he got an accessible apartment and a personal assistant who was paid by the state to care for him 30 hours a week. He was able to get himself in and out of bed from his wheelchair, so didn't need 24 hour care. This chick that got paid to cook, clean, and do some personal care was HIDEOUS. In healthcare, we call it "misappropriation". Basically stealing from a disabled or elderly person. She used his food stamps to feed herself and her kids, she smoked his cigarettes, she "borrowed" money from him frequently (never paid it back), she smoked his weed (being a double amputee, it greatly helped his phantom pain), and she definitely did not clean his apartment. It was filthy. I tried so hard to get him to get rid of her, but he wouldn't do it. She had the poor guy brainwashed. She also showed up when she felt like it. She made him conform to what schedule she wanted to be on. I feel just horrible that the last few years of his life were spent supporting someone who was supposed to be taking good care of him. His strong will got taken from him somewhere around that second amputation. He just wasn't the same. In the old days, he would have fired a lazy worker lickity split. I was able to go to his apartment many times in the past year and hang out with him. I brought him out to my house last summer for a day and that was great. I just wish I could have done more. And of course, I feel bad that I didn't do more, in retrospect. He had just turned 56 when he passed away. He apparently had unchecked lung cancer which spread to his brain causing a massive, sudden stroke. He passed 3 days later. I've not felt much like blogging, but I'll be trying to keep up with it! Thank you all for visiting my site and following along with my journey.
The weather has been so crazy! It stayed cold here waaaay too long. Spring was supposed to be here in Illinois when I got back from Florida, but it didn't happen truly until a few days ago. Now I am feeling rushed to get seeds, flowers, and vegetables in the ground. Wellness-wise, I'm feeling good. The scale is going in the right direction and I'm excited to be wearing some clothes that haven't fit in awhile. I frequently find myself staring in the fridge or cabinet and then choosing to drink a Slique Shake (Young Living's essential oil infused meal replacement shake). I also don't keep snacky stuff around much...if there were chips here, I would be eating them. Nurse life has been crazy. I've had some trying shifts lately. My feet were killing me last night, as I didn't get to get off of them until I got in the car to go home. BUT...we have to pay bills now, don't we! I have a big weekend coming up. I get to see some of my loves from Florida who are arriving for a wedding (which I am also attending). I've been thinking about my intake goals, and I think that Saturday and Sunday are going to have to be "free days" lol. I will be out and about, seeing them Saturday afternoon, going to see some live music Saturday night, then the wedding on Sunday. Although my food and drink intake may be higher this weekend, THERE WILL BE DANCING!! Dance like no one is watching, people. Peace and love.
Hello, all! I just spent a week in Ft. Myers, Florida with my Young Living sponsor/enroller (a.k.a. bestie), her husband, and another couple. It was ok being the 5th wheel. I tried to give the couples time without me since they were kind enough to invite me along! Unfortunately, I'm a beach dummy. I thought I would be fine without sunscreen as I stayed under the umbrella all afternoon on our first day there. I didn't even think about those UV's reflecting off the sand onto my umbrella shaded skin. The result of that was a mild case of sun poisoning, which caused me some dehydration, vomiting, hives, and a nasty bumpy rash on my lower neck/upper chest. Way to go newbie! Right??! Once again for air travel, I had my quart sized ziplock bag full of oils....thankfully! I rubbed Digize over my stomach to ease the nausea. I made a roller ball with Lavender and Panaway for the hives, rash and burn. My oils "saved my life"!! Other than that faux pas, the week was wonderful. Since entering the decade of my 50's, I have thought about the "bucket list" for my life. I have made mental notes of things I want on that list. One of the items is parasailing, and I checked that one off this week! The experience was absolutely amazing! I want to do it again!
Weight loss-wise, I managed to still lose a little while indulging in good vacation eats and drinks. Yay! I'm not on track to be rid of the 100# on the schedule I originally planned, but I will get there. I'm sure of it. I'm thrilled that over 31 pounds are gone from me. Young Living products have changed the way I do so many things, without toxins! I must now get back to some nursing for a bit. Need to pay those bills and prepare for Vacation #3, coming up in June. It will be another economical trip (that's the only kind I take...haha). I am going to Michigan to see my loved ones there (not all family is blood related!), and then hitting a couple of Dead and Company shows on my way back. While in Michigan, my friend I am staying with is taking me to an event called "Hippie Fest". I'm sure I will love it! Unlike all the little beach shops in Florida, I bet I will find all kinds of clothes I want to buy! Ha! Peace to you, friends!
This week I am at the same weight as I was on 12/20/17. I've been juggling a few pounds back and forth since then. I have my excuse as to WHY it has been that way...that whole grief thing...but I have no excuses to continue the emotional hand to mouth activity. I actually started tracking my intake on my phone app again. I need the accountability, even if it's just my app telling me what to do! I have been drinking more water, which is so hard for me. Adding some essential oils helps immensely! Spring is officially here, even though it is still cold, but I am going to get out and do some focused walks. I'm downloading some good tunes to keep in step to! I have accepted that my original goal of 100# in a year has been stunted by my emotional winter mess, but I'm still here, and I'm going to get there! Thanks for walking with me on my journey!
This Tuesday’s investigative report is brought to you because this product used to be one of my favorites. It was what mom always bought for bathroom cleaning, and that was one of my chores, so naturally, I continued to use it into my adult years. It was always a “nose burner”...going back into the bathroom after I had sprayed it down and let it sit for a few minutes. It works. It melts away the dirt and soap scum. But let’s see what’s in it that makes that stuff melt, shall we? As before, I am repeating information here that I found on ewg.org (Environmental Working Group) As I discovered that Dawn has numerous variations of their product, Scrubbing Bubbles does also; 30 of them. I chose the one that I used; the original aerosol spray can. It’s overall grade is an “F”. There is moderate concern for asthma/respiratory issues (I refer back to my “nose burner” comment). There is some concern for: skin allergies and irritation, developmental and reproductive toxicity, cancer, and environment. The worst of the chemical in this product (with an “F” grade) is ALKYL DIMETHYL BENZYL AMMONIUM CHLORIDES . The Environmental Protection Agency says that “ this substance poses a high risk for human health”. The second toxic chemical listed is BUTOXYDIGLYCOL . It’s grade can be from “C” to “F” depending on the concentration used in a product. The EPA indicates that it’s an “F”...they say there is moderate concern for pulmonary function. There are other chemicals listed in Scrubbing Bubbles; Some with grades of “D”, and some with “C”. Back in the day, I sure didn’t think about what was contained in that aerosol cleaner that I loved so much. Today, I will never buy that stuff again. Of course, I’m going to tell you about the Young Living product I use to clean my bathroom. Thieves Household Cleaner. I love this product! Takes off the soap scum as well as the toxins did. It is way more cost effective than any toxic cleaners out there. I bought a large bottle over a year ago, and still have some left. Young Living has a full line of Thieves products. I would be glad to share a sample of anything I have with you to try! There is also a Thieves Kit you can purchase to get several of the products at a discounted price! Contact me any time to answer questions!
Although I felt so recharged last week, this one has been rather "blah". Winter temps have prevailed, and I find it hard some days to be motivated. I did not do a 5 day nutritive cleanse as I had thought I would. I was even unmotivated on that plan! I am definitely looking forward to enjoying more Florida warmth and beach sitting in April. Some dear friends invited me to be the 5th wheel on their vacation...I am going with 2 couples. I will definitely not mind being their 5th wheel. They are fun! Plus, if I want to take off and do something alone, they still have each other! Ha! I am just super ready for spring. I want to get out and take walks without freezing. I want to garden. I want my perennials to return. Soon. This has been an emotionally rough winter in which I did not reach the goals I set for myself in the fall. Have to keep on keepin' on! Have a great rest of your week!